Longtime, no talk! As the 2022 senior session nears and the inquiries become more frequent, I decided it was finally time to make this “announcement”. I am not one for making announcements or dramatic blogposts but it felt like the best way to get the information out, so here we are!
The experience Madison Nicole Portraits has given me the past 9 years is irreplaceable. For 9 years, I thought this business was my end all be all. Little did I know this business was a stepping stone for goals I didn’t even know I had. For those who don’t know, I opened a coffee shop with my mom this past winter. The shop had been in the works for a long time and I was looking forward to expanding my experience of business beyond photography into new and uncharted territory. Which has lead me to the decision to not book any more sessions for the 2021-2022 year.
I reached a point in my photography career where, I love photography with everything in me (not to be dramatic but it was true!) but I didn’t love doing it as my profession. Last season, although filled with some of the most amazing people I have met, was rough. I reached a point where all I wanted was out. By the end of the season last fall, I was anxious and depressed. I was depressed because I was anxious and I was anxious because I was depressed. I felt defeated, like how could something I love so much make me feel the way I felt. I worked with amazing people, I loved owning my business, I enjoyed photography but it wasn't where I was meant to be anymore. I thought as this upcoming year got closer I would be less anxious about going back to photography, but spoiler, the anxiety never went away. Then the anxiety grew and the thoughts of taking a step back came to mind. The anxiety grew to a how could I walk away from something I worked 9 years for!? Luckily, my fiancé told me one day "You aren't walking away, you can go back whenever you want. It's just a break". While that may seem like such a "duh" statement, it changed how I looked at it all.
I feel like Madison Nicole Portraits gave me the experience and knowledge I needed to be able to get to a point where I could explore other work options. I had no idea it would lead to coffee shop, but it did, and I love it. I feel like for the first time in awhile I am where I need to be and the best part to me is although photography will no longer be my full-time job, I can still do it! I am beyond excited to move photography back towards a hobby and get to do it on different terms.
So, this is not the end of Madison Nicole Portraits, just a new chapter. A year from now I may be back to doing it full-time or maybe not even at all. I don't have the answers but for now I am taking it one step at a time. I will continue to post updates on social media and my website about if I am booking sessions and when!
And to everyone who has been on this journey with me, thank you! Thank you for allowing me to make my dreams come true, push me to better and following along.